Like an Opening Door (ficlet; Saiyuki)

Title: Like an Opening Door
Author: opalmatrix
Warnings: nihilism and casual talk of self-destruction and murder
Rating: PG for language
Pairing(s): n/a
Spoilers: Hakkai's backstory
Notes: shortfic written for lady_ganesh. Prompt: Hakkai, Sanzo, lost and found. The title is from an Oysterband song, "The Lost and Found": It's like an opening door/It's what we came here for. I've covered this ground before, but it still draws me. Un beta-ed.
Summary: Sanzo has no intention of giving up on Hakkai, or letting Hakkai give up.

( 'It's not working. I'm not going to get better ... ' )